Kalafin99

Hello! I haven't been in here for a long time now.

Sorry for the impromptu hiatus for the last few years. I tried to get back to posting online during those years, but I couldn't do it because of university and health. Sitting for long hours for classes and doing homework made my back pain worse. I instead focused on taking care of myself and doing my assignments to graduate fast.

I graduated in the summer of 2019 and went into looking for jobs directly after my graduation. My lack of experiences and rejections made me go into freelancing. It worked well until the pandemic happened in early 2020.

The lack of job postings in freelancing was slowly diminishing. Most were looking for logos that were out of my expertise. I went into dormant again.

But I get into fandom and can kick myself to post online again.

I was reading through Outlast fanfics in the mid-2020 and found a particular fanfic that I love. I asked for their permission to draw their fanfic for my comic practice, and they said yes. I was posting it on my AO3 account for a few chapters.

When I was doing it, a friend in the Toram Online game discord server told me about Mohammed Agbadi's discord server. They convinced me about how friendly and helpful the server was.

I was worried about sharing my works with strangers by then because of my inactivity on the internet. I heard about critics people had with my current OTP. But, I needed to be brave if I wanted to go into the art industry, so I went to show them the comic's WIP pages.

My worries were false.

The server was friendly and helpful; they helped me a lot with my works and encouraged me to go back to social media. With the encouragement from them and the Outlast AO3 community, I finally gathered my wits to create a new Twitter account in September 2020. Now, I'm active there, posting my works between a few days.

I was away too long from social media that I didn't know what happened to Tumblr and Deviantart. Because of Tumblr's purge and my guilt with Deviantart, I decide to focus on Twitter for now. I know Instagram is better than Twitter for art, but the algorithm is weird, and my families have lots of accounts there that I have no idea which one is which. So, Twitter is better for me, so I can post whatever I want without arguing with my family.

About the guilt that I mention in the paragraph above... You see...😅😅

I decide not to finish Volkstrauertag.

The reason isn't because of laziness or anything like that. I was having a mental breakdown of drawing a whole chapter again.

In late 2017 or early 2018, I made a mistake and lost all my data when updating my laptop's memory space, including my university assignments and the whole chapter 5. I almost hyperventilated, but my mom was thankfully able to calm me down through phone calls. I couldn't recover the data myself, so I paid a professional to rescue my data instead. He could save most of them, except for the comic and some files since his software didn't support Clip Studio Paint and SAI file extension.

I thought it wasn't a big issue until I try to redraw them again. I was on page 7 when I had a realization. I counted how many hours I needed to complete it, how many times I stop to rest for my back, and so on. I had a mental breakdown after that.

Because of that, I decide not to continue it for the sake of my mental health...

Sorry for the disappointment, guys. 😭

I understand if you lost interest in my works, but if you're still interested, my commonly used username is now Cieltic. I decide not to go by Kalafin99 anymore to start anew.

Here is the link to my Twitter.

Thank you guys for your understanding.